♥Sunday, June 12, 2011♥
Haiz, it seems quite some time since I posted my last entry...
Alot of things happened which I really dunno wat to do; how to cope...
On the 30th May 2011, I received my final semester result...I LOST MY 3RD CLASS HONOUR, that is because of my two level 4 electives. I guess I am really not interested in biomedical modules anymore, yet I still forced myself to take biomedical track due to some reasons. I have actually intended to go into control or communication track, there is nothing that I can says now, I have to accept it and not think about it anymore! I had suffered one of my greatest setbacks, no more tears and hopefully time and my work can help me not to think about it.
It was a very difficult decision which took me quite a few months to finally make up this final decision. I guess things turn out to be liddat is not what everyone wanted. I really hopes the person who caused the three of us to be so miserable, will change which many people told me is impossible!!! If she really wants to change, she will change long time ago and not carry on with this kind of attitude for 23 years which upsets so many people. Dad told her that a family (let her) do until liddat and sis had informed her of our moving out. Dad told her that he had intends to bring sis and I to leave her, but dad said that he cannot leave with us because he has the obligation to look after her. Dad is so good to her, yet she still do not trust dad which sis told me because of whatever things that she told sis when sis visited her that day. I knows there is only one person who can change her, that is my great- grandma. Grandma and dad said that she has this kind of attitude, that is because great-grandma spoilt her! But great-grandma deceased in 1988, so who can change her now??? I have been thinking on whether should I visit her, but dad and sis told me that her attitude still have not change. Tears just rolled down whenever I am thinking whether to pay her a visit, what can I do??? I fear of visiting her, yet I wants to visit her, I am in a dilemma! Right till now, I am still thinking of her...I am deciding whether to attend Commencement 2011...haiz. Anyway, I am also quite busy with works on my commencement date; I have meeting and I hopes to go through the design review submition process with them.
Perhaps I should not think too much. Even sis is also leading a usual lives, she want dating almost everyday which I prefers because I can use the table...lolz. I likes my current living environment, because I can go and play swing le!!! It is difficult to find swings nowadays. My landlord is good, he allows us to delay in paying rental for this month. It is hard to find a landlord that allows delay in rental payment. We have to delay rental payment, that is because sis and I are living with my one and only income currently...we no longer wants to ask parents for money, esp. She! And hence I have to be thrifty for these few months until August. I intends to pay this month and next month rental fee when I receives my salary at the end of this month! I DO NOT LIKE TO DELAY PAYMENT UNLESS I HAVE NO CHOICE, it just caused me to feel uncomfortable!!!
Sis asks me to go out on my own, dun keep staying at home. Of course, I will! However, I have to wait until my September’s salary (unless sis is able to find a suitable job soon, but I dun want to rush her. I hopes she can get a job of her desire, and not just accept the job offer if there is for the sake of reducing my burden) in order to go and enjoy life. I wanna catch movies and taste all the different spaghetti. I had try aglio olio and loves the spaghetti from one of the foodcourts at lot 1. And also perhaps, I will find out on the IE what kinds of volunteer works that I can do to keep myself occupy on weekends.
For the beginning, it is tough. But it will get better as time goes by
As for my work, I SUPER likes my job and I am still learning. The senior engineer who has been guiding me, have a little chat with me on Friday evening. He asked me how I finds and how many weeks I have been working. Haha...it is going to be one month within one or two weeks and of course, I loves this job. He told me that after a few weeks, he assign things for me to do, let me be more independent and also learn to make the right decision confidently without any guidance. Lol, hopefully I can do and not disappoint him! And I also realized that whatever that I learn from my uni only make up less than 1 percent of my works...there are alot of things to do for a control engineer; have to design the systems; have to look at diagrams and do makeup; have to come up with pricing; have to know how to calculate the number of I/O and many more. I really hopes that I can work in this company for as long as possible and become a senior engineer before I turn 30. haha, 7 more years to go! And maybe during these 7 years, I may want to pursue part-time Master program and this time, I wanna specialize in instrumentation and control! But the final decision will have to depend on my workloads! Currently, I have stop my driving lessons temporarily. Although I am going to complete and can take my practical test in July, I would like to focus on my work. I can sense that my workloads are getting heavy. I had started attending meeting and underwent training course and furthermore, I am a person who likes to finish my works asap, though they can be delay! There are also opportunities to work overseas which I have to wait for 4 to 5 years...haha, I am waiting for the opportunity to go oversea. In the meantime, there are still alot more for me to learn and understand. (=
P.S. An interesting thing is colleagues who I have been lunching with is rushing me to get married! lol, I told them that I dont have bf and also my desire marry age is 32, so there is still 9 years for me to slowly pick...haha! (=
Alot of things happened which I really dunno wat to do; how to cope...
On the 30th May 2011, I received my final semester result...I LOST MY 3RD CLASS HONOUR, that is because of my two level 4 electives. I guess I am really not interested in biomedical modules anymore, yet I still forced myself to take biomedical track due to some reasons. I have actually intended to go into control or communication track, there is nothing that I can says now, I have to accept it and not think about it anymore! I had suffered one of my greatest setbacks, no more tears and hopefully time and my work can help me not to think about it.
It was a very difficult decision which took me quite a few months to finally make up this final decision. I guess things turn out to be liddat is not what everyone wanted. I really hopes the person who caused the three of us to be so miserable, will change which many people told me is impossible!!! If she really wants to change, she will change long time ago and not carry on with this kind of attitude for 23 years which upsets so many people. Dad told her that a family (let her) do until liddat and sis had informed her of our moving out. Dad told her that he had intends to bring sis and I to leave her, but dad said that he cannot leave with us because he has the obligation to look after her. Dad is so good to her, yet she still do not trust dad which sis told me because of whatever things that she told sis when sis visited her that day. I knows there is only one person who can change her, that is my great- grandma. Grandma and dad said that she has this kind of attitude, that is because great-grandma spoilt her! But great-grandma deceased in 1988, so who can change her now??? I have been thinking on whether should I visit her, but dad and sis told me that her attitude still have not change. Tears just rolled down whenever I am thinking whether to pay her a visit, what can I do??? I fear of visiting her, yet I wants to visit her, I am in a dilemma! Right till now, I am still thinking of her...I am deciding whether to attend Commencement 2011...haiz. Anyway, I am also quite busy with works on my commencement date; I have meeting and I hopes to go through the design review submition process with them.
Perhaps I should not think too much. Even sis is also leading a usual lives, she want dating almost everyday which I prefers because I can use the table...lolz. I likes my current living environment, because I can go and play swing le!!! It is difficult to find swings nowadays. My landlord is good, he allows us to delay in paying rental for this month. It is hard to find a landlord that allows delay in rental payment. We have to delay rental payment, that is because sis and I are living with my one and only income currently...we no longer wants to ask parents for money, esp. She! And hence I have to be thrifty for these few months until August. I intends to pay this month and next month rental fee when I receives my salary at the end of this month! I DO NOT LIKE TO DELAY PAYMENT UNLESS I HAVE NO CHOICE, it just caused me to feel uncomfortable!!!
Sis asks me to go out on my own, dun keep staying at home. Of course, I will! However, I have to wait until my September’s salary (unless sis is able to find a suitable job soon, but I dun want to rush her. I hopes she can get a job of her desire, and not just accept the job offer if there is for the sake of reducing my burden) in order to go and enjoy life. I wanna catch movies and taste all the different spaghetti. I had try aglio olio and loves the spaghetti from one of the foodcourts at lot 1. And also perhaps, I will find out on the IE what kinds of volunteer works that I can do to keep myself occupy on weekends.
For the beginning, it is tough. But it will get better as time goes by
As for my work, I SUPER likes my job and I am still learning. The senior engineer who has been guiding me, have a little chat with me on Friday evening. He asked me how I finds and how many weeks I have been working. Haha...it is going to be one month within one or two weeks and of course, I loves this job. He told me that after a few weeks, he assign things for me to do, let me be more independent and also learn to make the right decision confidently without any guidance. Lol, hopefully I can do and not disappoint him! And I also realized that whatever that I learn from my uni only make up less than 1 percent of my works...there are alot of things to do for a control engineer; have to design the systems; have to look at diagrams and do makeup; have to come up with pricing; have to know how to calculate the number of I/O and many more. I really hopes that I can work in this company for as long as possible and become a senior engineer before I turn 30. haha, 7 more years to go! And maybe during these 7 years, I may want to pursue part-time Master program and this time, I wanna specialize in instrumentation and control! But the final decision will have to depend on my workloads! Currently, I have stop my driving lessons temporarily. Although I am going to complete and can take my practical test in July, I would like to focus on my work. I can sense that my workloads are getting heavy. I had started attending meeting and underwent training course and furthermore, I am a person who likes to finish my works asap, though they can be delay! There are also opportunities to work overseas which I have to wait for 4 to 5 years...haha, I am waiting for the opportunity to go oversea. In the meantime, there are still alot more for me to learn and understand. (=
P.S. An interesting thing is colleagues who I have been lunching with is rushing me to get married! lol, I told them that I dont have bf and also my desire marry age is 32, so there is still 9 years for me to slowly pick...haha! (=
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